Eid Mubarak all!!

Last official day of my 2 weeks off from work for Eid. Needed time off for various different reasons, not least that I wasnt getting enough sleep and..... surprise surprise, i still think I havent caught up much with my sleep. Oh well,its given me a chance to bum around.... mom wanted me back at work yesterday but since I got this cold/sorethroat/flu thingy on Eid day I've been let off the hook. Its Friday morning... I'm still waiting for the guy off Ebay to let me know the final price for the stuff I've asked. Hopefully he'll give me a good price and double hopefully (read : Insha'Allah) he'll say he can send the stuff out today for delivery tomorow. If not, I mite just hack it all the way up there... Hey if nothing else the change of scenery going down to Southend will be nice. Might take my camera up and take a few pictures as well. Oh well, we'll see how that goes.

I should get up and go take a shower as I dont want to be late for Juma (oh btw, Juma Mubarak people). Cant decide what to have for breakfast... do I just have some cake with coffee.. or make myself an omlette... or do I just go rummaging through the fridge and see what I can find... oops... just realized... shouldnt probably talk about food seeing as people might be fasting their 6 days of Shawwal. If you are Masha'Allah to you and booo on me for not having started.. I intend to as well insha'Allah.. as soon as this damn faucet in my nose gets turned off and I start sounding less like a toad with a razor blade in its throat.

Anyhoo... oh yes... another bit of meaningless info for blogistan, I am back in contact with a person who has made a humongous impact on my life... after nearly a year I believe. Its still not like it used to be but lets see how things go. And that as they say, is all folks.. now to get my grub on...

Randomly

Its been an eventful year of sorts. Lots has happenned... lots has changed... and where I dont want to dwell on what has gone by, it is certain that its the events you live through that shape you as the person you become. See where I wouldnt like this post to be going down the path it is, I feel no other way to express what I feel right now. Guess its the sort of person I have become. One thing I have noticed and so have a lot of other people is, that I've become a lot more of a cynic. I've become harsh... my patience, which I considered to stretch a fair bit, is now nowhere near what it used to be. I've become more of a recluse... or in simpler words, have no life. I've lost touch with people I used to be really close to. Those who i am still in contact with say I am not the same person I used to be. Guess life does change us all. Its an ever changing process and I think I've decided I dont want to change and where the change does come in, it is met with adversity.

Ramadan has not been paid its proper due. Where I should have strived to better myself, I have seen no changes. Cant say I've made the best of this opportunity that I've been presented. Dont know where I'm heading now.

So what has prompted me to blog ? Well I was going through my inbox clearing out the junk and I saw a lot of emails which had had an affect on me. Emails from friends and family, from blogistanis, from relatives. They covered all the different points in my life. I re-read the emails from last year just about this time when dad passed away. How people I never even used to talk (or in blogistan) never even read their blogs etc emailed me. How before that people used to share with me, how I shared with them, tried to be there for them. Tried to help. Emails from people who read my blog and found it funny/interesting. Emails from people asking for help, emails from people just catching up. Emails from people about work, business, life, friendship and everything in between. Reading all those I realized how much I have changed and how its time I tried to change again.

If nothing else, I think the time is now to embrace the change. How well I fare is another matter, but its high time I tried. If anyone is still reading... your duas would be appreciated.

P.S. this post comes as a result of random thoughts/actions/fellings and a promise made which was long overdue to be kept!