We're Not Gonna Take It!

We're not gonna take it!!! Well apparently we'll have to.. although it is annoying.. and to top it off.. the twisted sister website aint working.. or my computer's playin up.. (probably the later)... why is everything so difficult!!!??? ARGH!!!!

Eid Mubarak all!! Last official day of my 2 weeks off from work for Eid. Needed time off for various different reasons, not least that I wasnt getting enough sleep and..... surprise surprise, i still think I havent caught up much with my sleep. Oh well,its given me a chance to bum around.... mom wanted me back at work yesterday but since I got this cold/sorethroat/flu thingy on Eid day I've been let off the hook. Its Friday morning... I'm still waiting for the guy off Ebay to let me know the final price for the stuff I've asked. Hopefully he'll give me a good price and double hopefully (read : Insha'Allah) he'll say he can send the stuff out today for delivery tomorow. If not, I mite just hack it all the way up there... Hey if nothing else the change of scenery going down to Southend will be nice. Might take my camera up and take a few pictures as well. Oh well, we'll see how that goes. I should get up and go take a shower as I dont want to be late for Juma ...

Randomly Its been an eventful year of sorts. Lots has happenned... lots has changed... and where I dont want to dwell on what has gone by, it is certain that its the events you live through that shape you as the person you become. See where I wouldnt like this post to be going down the path it is, I feel no other way to express what I feel right now. Guess its the sort of person I have become. One thing I have noticed and so have a lot of other people is, that I've become a lot more of a cynic. I've become harsh... my patience, which I considered to stretch a fair bit, is now nowhere near what it used to be. I've become more of a recluse... or in simpler words, have no life. I've lost touch with people I used to be really close to. Those who i am still in contact with say I am not the same person I used to be. Guess life does change us all. Its an ever changing process and I think I've decided I dont want to change and where the change does come in, it is met with a...

What do you do when you do all you're not supposed to do you dont do what you're supposed to do you think all you're not supposed to think you wish all you're not supposed to wish you're tempted by what is wrong

Mondays It takes about 10 minutes to walk from Victoria Station to work. Its almost always the same routine, get out of the station, light up a cigarette, and walk down. Now working in a place where I’m allowed to waltz in anytime before 9:30 I’m never sure what time I’m going to get in. So halfway down the walk, I look at my watch to guess how long it will take for me to get in. Monday mornings have never held any real charm for anyone but mine have changed that little bit more now. Recently, things have slightly changed. It’s the same station I walk from, same route I take, and as before look at the watch halfway down. Only difference now is, before I even look at the watch, I have already gone back to the morning of Monday, 14 November. All I can see is myself standing in the Cardio Unit of the hospital with my mom, watching as nurses and doctors rush around. The same people, the same voices, the same phrases being uttered. I stand and watch as another life slowly slips away. I reme...

Inna Lillahi Wa Inna Ilayhi Rajioon First off I would like to say JAzaka'Allah to all the wonderful duas and kind words by everyone in emails and on my blog. Even people who's blogs I never visit had the most uplifting duas for me and I truly appreciate it. Thank you all once again and may Allah shower his mercy upon you all. Its been almost a week now since dad passed away. Allah truly is the best of planners. Just last night I was talking to a good friend of mine on the phone who was trying to help me get my head straight. The night before he passed away, dad was feeling so much better, we were sort of comfortable leaving him on his own and the nurses said the same thing. My friend's mother had been in the hospital for the last couple of days and yesterday was the first night my friend didnt stay over. About an hour or so ago, I received a text from her saying her mom has passed away. It absolutely breaks my heart to think what she must be going through as I know the feel...

Prayers for all Dear all, on the morning of 14th November, my dad returned back to the creator. All I would ask of anyone who reads this is to pray for his forgiveness, for our forgiveness and that Allah may give us the understanding to not take his blessings for granted. Jazaka'Allah Khair.